11 weeks and 2 days

and feeling a little disheartened. With the court closure looming, I am afraid we won't get a referral until they reopen. (AGCI has to collect legal documents before giving out referrals. When the courts close for August and September they can't collect documents, so the referrals slow way down.) I am glad for all the legal trappings and the responsibility of the Ethiopian government for taking such good care of their children. I am just sad, because I have this overflowing love for a little girl I have not met, but that God laid on my heart many years ago.

We started this process last November, so in our hearts we have been pregnant for 8 months already and it looks like we will be for at least another 5-8 months. I wish I had a crystal ball and could foresee the future. I am not good at not knowing. If I knew we couldn't hold her until February, at least I could armor myself for the long wait. The problem is is that there is always hope. I can't let go of it. I am hoping that we have her home before the year is over. Most of all, being a mother who loves this child as much as the ones I already have here now, I want what is best for her. So, I will wait for God's perfect timing, but continue to...